Jump!

Now that I have managed to get a handle on the door or that great hall of being a published writer..ok, maybe not quite the handle of the door.. maybe it is the doorman checking my credentials, but I am preparing to knock on those doors.  But before I can do that I have to jump, take a leap of faith and jump.  Faith in my writing, and faith in myself.  

As soon as I got the notice that I had made it into the top 100 of the Amazon Breakthrough Novel Contest, I popped my agent query letter up on my computer and proudly added, "I am currently a finalist..."  For the first time in a long while, I have been proud of myself and for the first time in a long while, I can feel good about calling myself a writer.  I may get no further that the top 500 entries, or I may make it to the end, it doesn't matter.  What matters is that I took that first leap of faith and submitted my manuscript.

Now to take that second leap and email that letter to some agents.  That letter has been staring at me since Tuesday and all I do is stare right back, unable to hit send.  I keep asking myself why?  I know why.  It's the same thing that kept me from almost not entering Amazon's contest... fear.  But I know now, I am stronger than that fear, and better than that fear and I will knock on the hallowed hall of publishing.... right after I let the cat out.